i dunno what to write, also my internet is still crap now and then, also we have lots of storms here and the trees are making cracking noises while they bend in the wind and it's creepy, finally it's spring and going out is less than pleasant (still) due to the storms. daww...

i'm feeling okay actually, a little bit of meh but it's better than oh nooooooooo woe is iii and all that crap, i'd prefer not to talk about it and and would like to pretend everything is okay right now, uh.

oh andnddndd, here are you pretty people who i owe trades to!

~winglessdragon
~Viey
~seppenator
~Tannakitten

i'm currently closed for trades until i've finished all of these, which will be, hopefully, very soon! after that i'd love to take up on some more. or do commissions because my financial situation is kind of tight, but not worrisome tight, i'd just kinda need to buy a new cupboard because i don't have any storeroom for my clothes anymore (everything is all over my room now and it's a mess due to that), the one i used before was taken apart to use the room where it stood and... uh, yeah, it's too big to fit my own room. blah blah, really, i hate writing journals because all i could write about is my incredibly boring life.

AND THANKS EVERYONE AGAIN who tuned in. XD let's see what i can do next time (s-some time this week, i've lost the file of the one i wanted to finish, it appears, or it's on my computer which i don't have access to anymore, daw..)

i'm getting more and more server errors no matter what page i visit, it's mostly on dA though, and various other sites, if i go to a site like animexx it'll work, sometimes i even get server errors with google. i tried checking the modem, but all seems okay, also it doesn't log any downtime or errors in the connection. :/ my net seems to die every two minutes for a few minutes then working again, then dying... weird, because i'm able to keep connections up on IMs perfectly and have no lag at all.

i don't know what's doing this, i have to test it later on mom's computer maybe, but so far... ugh. i'm doing a full virus scan now, even though i doubt it's one at all. i also yet have to do a checkdisk because i can't even defrag the system, O&O defrag gets just stuck at a point and i can wait for hours, nothing will happen. i don't mind doing checkdisks actually, but vista is a special kid.

at least i haven't had very many gfx errors lately, it's definitely not a termal issue, seeing how my notebook runs just fine and it get even warmer here. this, uh, so far seems to be a vista-only problem.

HP quicktouch is messing up, especially on the volume control buttons, i'm not even pressing them but it keeps messing up the sound, my notebook is perfectly clean in and outside, so i have absolutely no explanation for that. i don't want to reinstall my sound drivers now. i disabled the buttons now, seems to work, even though i get a weirdly jumpy control bar when trying to change the sound. i can't even explain, it spazzes around on its own.

what bothers me the most is the retarded internet though, probably a problem with my computer, but what the hell? the only thing that makes me think why this is that way now is because i haven't paid the bill in a month, but they send at least two warnings from what i know. and i only haven't paid it because mom just took all of my money last month (and owes me around 250€ i will definitely never see again), and i'm still waiting for my payments for this month.
also, i think they'd just have taken it down completely then.

i'll respond to comments as soon as it's a bit more stable.
i wish i had my computer again, i'd rather work with a leafblower running on XP than this stupid vista notebook. DX
i'm wondering if it's worth getting a copy of 7 though... does anyone know if it's possible to upgrade an HP notebook (pavilion) outside of the upgrade program they had offered for notebooks bought after june 2009? because i bought mine before the offer.